My first experience with hospitals that I vividly recall was going to visit my grandmother after she had open heart surgery. My adolescent self felt so intimidated and scared by all the machines and hoses and cords. She was still intubated, and couldn’t speak, just laid there lifeless. A vivacious woman now completely immobilized for […]
A Rollercoaster Ride
We have been fortunate to get more and more plugged into the adoptive world. As we do so, the reoccurring analogy we hear from just about everyone discussing the process is comparing the process to a rollercoaster ride. With all the twists and turns and ups and downs and highs and lows we have experienced […]
Adoption Update: Waiting Again
Hey. I’m still here. We’ve had a whole lot going on in the last month or so. We had our final dossier push, which was (as every adoption venture seems to be) filled with drama. Including two wrongly certified documents, driving to far away countries, being stuck in downtown traffic when I need to be […]
Today I Want to Quit
When China said no to us the first time, we thought maybe it was a door closing on adoption. We almost quit thinking about adoption then. Then Kyrgyzstan opened up, and we felt we were supposed to walk down that road. We busted our rear ends completed a home study and submitted a dossier in 3 […]
Adoption Update: Change
Adoption is beautiful and screams of redemption, but it was never the original plan. Which is why there is brokenness in the process. I tweeted that awhile back. It’s stuck with me as we have been seeing the brokenness in adoption the last few months. This summer as I flipped through my timehop app, I’ve […]
Waiting Sucks
There is a lot of waiting in life, unfortunately. Just about everyone goes through a period of waiting. Waiting for a pregnancy, spouse or job. Waiting for a doctors update, or to hear back from a college. Waiting for a house, direction, or answer, we spend a lot of our lives waiting. I adore Dr. Seuss. […]
Adoption Update III
It’s been awhile since I updated much on the adoption front. In large part because when it comes to getting our girl, there isn’t really much to update on. We are still waiting. Our country has slowed down a bit after opening (as was expected). They went from averaging about 2 months from dossier to […]
I Want Crazy
Several weeks ago we sat across the table from the President of Promise 686*, and he congratulated us on officially committing to the “crazy” that is the path of adoption. The phrase struck me as he said it, confirming an idea that had long been bouncing around my heart. I’ve always joked with my husband that […]
Enter the Fray
I was totally one of those people before I had kids. Like, if I was out at a restaurant and your kid was acting a fool, I was silently judging you and your lack of control. Because you know, my (then fictional) kids would NEVER act like that. Hah! All the laughs, as I pretend to […]
A Life of Sacrifice
Oh, hey blank empty space. It’s been like three weeks since I’ve been round here. I miss writing, and the processing that comes when I write. I’m actually missing a lot of things right now. Like creating, and reading…feeling like I have control over my life. I feel really overwhelmed right now. As we’ve worked […]